I am so exhausted. I got honestly NO sleep last night and I’m probably so bipolar no one can handle me. Luckily swedish music is making my mood pop right back up.
I have reblogged this an innumerable amount of times and I won’t stop. The media spreads this false image to its viewers and we wonder why our self esteem as a whole is so distorted. It’s because the images so constantly shoved down our throats is.
I will always reblog this as a good self reminder.
Today is apparently ”make my mood drop and make me dislike you” day. I really can’t take people’s shit. All people so is complain or pretend like I’m not even here.
Like fuck off…
Sometimes u just gotta think, what thaaaa fuuuuck?!
Today I am tired. Both physically and mentally, but mostly mentally. I have too much to think about at the moment and I notice I’m completely exhausted. A lot has happened in my life lately that have made all the time and thoughts in addition to the job. I am very happy and cheerful all the time (or at least i try to be), but I feel especially on evenings alone that I just would rather have had a break.
You know the feeling? I spend everyday, or for the last couple of weeks trying to keep my mind off everything and nothing by being with friends. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, but I feel broken. I feel like I’m never good enough. And every night I am stuck with that feeling.
Last year (2012) i spent my summer, getting my heart broken. But at the same time I felt completely fine. I don’t know what happened, but I had a depressing time and I tried everything to keep my mind off this part of ”never feeling good enough”. And thank god to one of my friends, I don’t think she knows it but she saved me in so many ways. She even spent a whole week in my house..
My problem is, I have too little time to relax. Even the few days I’m off i use with a lot of thinking and stress. I begin with the second word being reasonable desperate for a proper relaxation.
It may sound whiny, but none have only good and perfect days. We all have our “little downs” and times when we are tired. Sometimes so tired that you just want to sit down and cry without really know why though .. I think I’m close to something like that….